Wednesday, April 16, 2008

thoughts

- our kid is an acrobat. I think my ribs on the left side are bruised and my bladder may never be the same.

- we are getting pretty nervous about our boy's birth and about what happens after he is born - like bringing him home.

- I am feeling a little sad that my time of having Paul all to myself is coming to an end. I feel the same about our rhythm of life.

- I am tired of constantly dealing with some things at work

- I love that Paul reads to our son just about every night before we go to bed

- OK, so, I am more than nervous about our son living outside my body...I am more scared.

- I am thankful for all my friends who have struggled through infertility because I was able to be gracious the other day when my co-worker told me she was so sorry she wasn't at my baby shower but it was a hard day for her...she and her husband have wanted to be pregnant for 24 years.

- in the same situation, I was even more thankful that the Lord called me to marriage "later" in my life...I know 29 isn't really later, but it was tons later than most people I am in community with. I am able to somewhat (not totally or completely by any stretch) relate to longing for something that isn't fulfilled.

- We feel so overwhelmed by all the random stuff that needs to be done...cleaning the house, finishing some shopping for the baby, finishing the baby's room, packing our hospital bags, enjoying each other.

- I am excited about the surprise date that I will have with Paul in the next few days...I don't know when or what.

- I am excited that this weekend has been declared "Doing things for just us weekend". That means everything else on our to-do list will be put on hold so we can have fun together and do things that give us joy. I will be getting a pedicure for these swollen feet.

- We are 35 and a half weeks pregnant (actually I am, but it's Paul's baby too)...


9 comments:

lfhcreative said...

I love that you guys are having one last baby free fling this weekend! :) I hope you have a great time!

I think parenting will come quite naturally to you and Paul and you will be pleasantly surprised at how well just winging it works. I can't wait to meet little J or N!

Sara said...

Sarah, I LOVE your honesty! :)
I completely agree with the comment above - everything WILL fall into place, believe it or not! It may seem like a 3-ring circus around the house for a bit, but before you know it you'll fall into a new "normal". The circus days DO come to an end (or at least, you get used to how life is with a kiddo!).
By the way, what is life like without kids? I've forgotten... :)
You guys are going to be GREAT parents! No worries!!

Unknown said...

Keep being real like this about all your feelings--make sure you share any and all feelings you have post-partum with Paul and trusted mother friends--it's okay to feel ANYthing you'll feel--it can be so confusing and so wonderful all at the same time (all those wacky hormones make us well, wacky). It WILL come more naturally than you realize, even if it is awkward at first. After a few days of diaper changing, you'll be a pro. If you're going to breastfeed, make sure you have a lacatation consultant as your support line! Can't wait to hear your news any day now! I think it's awesome too y'all are setting time aside for each other!

H Noble said...

You look beautiful Sarah! We went to Jonathan and Meredith's baby shower tonight and we are so happy for you and them both.

It does just seem to 'fit' when you finally hold him in your arms. Everything seems more natural than you can possible imagine it will be. Enjoy your time with Paul now, but remember, your marriage isn't ending- it only gets better.

I read a quote this morning that I loved: "I never knew I could love my husband more, until I saw him love our child." So true.

Take care of yourself! Can't wait to see you guys!
Holly

Unknown said...

I can remember Seth and I having some evening before Jackson came when we were both so overwhelmed with sadness about the changes. Allow yourselves a good cry. Follow it up with some ice cream (for the baby of course!). Your concerns are so normal and really so realistic. It's wonderful in a new way. A new "normal". Tell Paul to take our Houston (vonage)number to the hospital. We want to know when the baby finally arrives! We're thinking about you both! You three rather!
love, Kristen

kelli said...

My son came a little early and took us completely by surprise...and I cried the night before my daughter was born as I put my first born to bed one last time as my only child. How could my heart possibly hold another? But it does. As will yours.
It is good that you are savoring this time for just you...soon the day will come when you wonder how you ever got along without your son.
Thanks for your honesty! I wish you all the best in coming weeks!

TheLudlows said...

Sarah,
You look great! You will make it. It's a lot of change, but Oh so worth it.
C

Anonymous said...

Sarah, I'm so excited for you and Paul! I know what it means to long for something, and I LONG to be a mother in such a deep way...but it is such a joy to watch these blessings come your way!
Jessie Brudjar

lfhcreative said...

So how was your weekend? :) I hope it was a great kid free time!